Doraemin Time Machine

Went to cover a murder case last sunday. When i received instructions from the editor, my 1st thought was: 不要让我看到不该看的东西！

haha… though i have psychoed myself before accepting this job, i must admit that I still cant accept bloody scenes. I still rem when I’m in pri/sec school, my neighbour brought me to the scene where someone jumped off the bldg! Of cos the body was cleared, leaving blood stains behind. But this is enuff to keep me sleepless for many nights! Cant imagine if I am to see the body or some loose parts… yucks! sos…

Rushed off to scene with fellow colleague from 938. Saw alot of media there already! Worst thing is: The body is still there! *faint* ok it’s just my job, i thought! Just pray hard i wun get to see it… (luckily my worst fears are over, when we went back, police are still investigating & I din c anything) phew…

My mission: To get public sots. It seems difficult at 1st, everyone I asked dun seem to know anything. I’m starting to get worried, called the editor who said I must die die get sots. Oh dear! Stressed!

Found an auntie who saw the injured man being carried into the ambulance & I immediately "begged" for a sot! Auntie was unwilling but still said a few words… unfortunately my md was not in the recorder!!! *faint* 不会吧！I forgot to put bk the md cos of an earlier assig this morning!!! Oh no… auntie, pls repeat what u have just said… pls… (auntie ran off) aighs… auntie dun go, just a few words? (auntie seems frightened by my persistence and ran towds the lift) yada… auntie… (I pursued her to the lift, not willing to give up. In fact, I’m surprised by my actions… I mean, I act can be so persistent, even I myself got terrified by my actions… haiz.. when one is stressed, really can do anything! I think I can be potential 狗仔队) I wanted to follow her into the lift but I stopped myself from doing so, 太可怕了！我觉得自己很可怕！哈哈…

I guessed I’m really worried that she might be the only one with things to say and if I let her go, i wun be able to complete my mission! haiz… I think I worry too much, ended up I got more sots than expected & boss said the package was well done. I’m glad. But still… I dunno… am I a potential 狗仔队？or I’m slowly turning into 1? so scary…

载录自我在朋友blog的留言

改变是人生必经的过程。如果对比还没踏入社会工作的自己和现在的自己，恐怕改变更可怕吧？无论是样貌还是心态，都不一样了。

喜欢以前的自己，比较单纯，什么事都不会想太多。

现在的自己，还是不会多想，可是反而成了别人眼中的傻瓜、笨蛋。

该学习保护自己，朋友说，可是天天揣测别人心里在想什么，太累了！我不喜欢。傻也好，笨也好，我想这样的自己会比较快乐。

不过，好奇心还是要有的、察言观色也必须学习。否则我很快就要失业了。

Sunday 18 Jun 2006

Went reporting for this famine 30 event＆interviewｅｄ some students, asking them abt the reasons of joining and their feelings etc.

Some bkgd info: "Famine 30" is actually an activity organised by World vision where volunteers came & experienced the feeling of going w/o solid food for 30hrs, they still can have sugared drinks and plain water though. During the 30hrs, they also have to take part in activities and also collect newspapers to help the needy.

I’m quite impressed actually, I mean.. "inspired" is a better word. Not their ability to bear hunger for 30hrs but the reasons behind their participation. Words from a 17yr old college gal fangmin striked me hard. She said she had a dream, to go to ctys strucked by catastrophes to render her aid. When she said “我有一个梦”, she laughed sheepishly but I was impressed & touched!

Wow! 我真的觉得人因梦想而伟大！When I was 17, I never thought of volunteering my services in 3rd world ctys. Hmm… maybe I did, but 我永远是个想多做少的人！往往只是想想而已… I shld 反省！It’s time I start thinking of doing volunteer wk or learning cpr, not just think but also put my thoughts into action!

"Roving Report" = "Livecross"

I just found this out not long ago. This Mon & Tue, the newsroom newbies (some are quite senior act)attended this course on roving reports. It’s mainly to guide us on how to do a good livecross and the various things to note. I find the lecturer quite nice, with many interesting stories to share. I think the courses here are still quite ok, not too boring that I’ll start falling asleep left, right, centre. I still rem in WS, I’m notorious for zz during courses but now I act can keep myself awake! What an accomplishment!!! =P

Done the 1st livecross at the company’s lobby. Comment: Ending was no good, too adrupt, REDO! Okies, start running thru my mind of ideas to use: Cooking competition with mum making noises with wok and reciting recipes? Singing competition where I can record my classmates singing and interview some of them? What shld I do? hmm…

After a long nap and b4 going for singing class, I decided on the theme GSS. Easier to do and can get rab to be interviewee! haha… penned the whole script in a few mins and rushed off for class. Went to Raffles City after dinner and did the livecross. 3 takes! Rab was laughing thruout, think she’s rather amused! haha… act i’m also very amused la, standing there at night with pple staring at u as they walked past!

Finally… time to present: surprisingly the livecross was quite well received! hee… the instructor said I sounded totally different from how I looked. She said, despite looking timid, my voice sounded confident. I was sooooo happy & flattered! kekeke… I must jiayou!

Today boss said I must wk hard on my vocal training so that i can vo asap. I think we are really shorthanded so she hopes I can do it myself. hmm… how can I improve ne? Just gotta practise more I guess… Dun be too lazy! haha…

This week i actually have 3 days of reporting shift! haha… quite happy lah! I mean it’s really once in a blue blue moon, normally the most I had is once per week. But then this week is mainly hotline stories, which is rather difficult cos I’m not too sure if the story is worth doing or not… So unsure of the angle!

Get to go out for event today & even had swensens for lunch! =) Cos a colleague last min cld not make it so I got the chance. It’s a pleasant event though interviewing the kids are tough! Really gotta crack my brains on how to get sots from them. Most of them merely replied with a "ya, yes", nod head, shake head answer. But very cute la, when i listened back the sots, cant help laughing! hahahahaha… so funny! And FINALLY, I got my story out by 6pm! phew… so stressed! I’m still too slow… Next time shall aim for 5pm! Shld have go earlier and interview the A&P manager 1st, then after interviewing the kids, I can go off! hmm… lesson learnt!

I think last Sunday is the most efficient! Gotta cover 2 stories, both hotline but at least got stories to write. I’m so glad I finished both by 7pm. Phew… next time shall aim at completing 3 stories!

Jiayou jiayou! =D

Finally I’m converted to perm! Now I can enjoy all the benefits and bonuses and of cos the long AL! Pay raise too! But after the big blunder I made and of cos the incidents that followed, I’m not too sure if I shld be happy abt it…

Haiz… sometimes I’m beginning to really doubt my ability, am I really that slow or inefficient? Or does practice really makes perfect? I really dunno… Perhaps I shld really buck up and try to read newspapers everyday (apparently I still haven done that!)  sometimes I feel really discouraged esp nowadays… Some things which I feel shld pass are still harped upon… is it really that serious? yah.. i guess it is… but…

Shld I try to portray a professional image? but it’s really not me… But that doesn’t mean I’m blur at wk. hmm… what shld i do le…

Conversion to perm… can i really justify my own salary? If cannot, perhaps they will regret converting me. And I shld seriously think if i’m suitable to be in this profession. But nevertheless I guess this is just the down period for me, i need a break! aighs…

I’ve decided: I will just wk hard and dun care what others think or say… I’ll be myself! Jiayou doraemin!